Grow Old Along With Me..

The Best Is Yet To Be. It's incredible how tremendously my life and our relationship has changed in the short year we have been together. All we have is forever. I can't wait to be his wife!

A cord of three strands is not easily broken.

My relationship has brought me closer to God. I realized this recently, and have said it at least twice in the last two days. It's a huge realization to me, the most amazing revelation. Our relationship is stronger because God is part of it. And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A cord of three strands is not quickly torn apart.

I have never been so happy in my life. I have the man I love. I have the man who I will love for a life time. I loved him before I knew him. I dreamed him up in my mind. Somedays I can't believe this is reality. Somedays it's so hard to believe. But our love is everlasting.

last night was so beyond perfect. christopher and i are just starting out, and it's at that insane intensity, where my heart skips a beat when he looks at me. funny, it has been that way since we met almost two months ago.
we went to dinner, and we really started talking. he told me that me not sleeping with him the first night was the reason i was there with him last night. that you can't take a girl home to momma that puts out on the first date. i told him about how my mom says this is very similar to her and my father dating, how she felt, and all he could do was smile. everything he told me was perfect. he was just staring at me, telling me how beautiful i am, and i was completely speechless. all i could do was look back at him.
last night, i do believe we both fell.
or i'd like to think so.
all i know is, i'm not going anywhere. I'm here for the long run.

I’ve had this thought for a long time now.
Knowing how wonderful your Greek experience has been, what your sorority or fraternity means to you, and what yours values in the ritual, would you have gone through hazing activities to get to where you are now?
Looking back, if you knew it would be as good as it is, would you have accepted hazing to have the experience you have, and to live the ritual you live?
My sorority is completely anti-hazing. Zero tolerance. You do it, you are out. But I have found myself wondering about hazing. Not considering it by any means, but wanting to know, the point in it I guess. What does it build? I understand the idea of earning those letters, but don’t we do that through our new member periods? We are held to a standard, told to come to educational meetings, and tested on the information. If you chose not to come to these meetings you forfeit the rights of being initiated. If you don’t pass the test you do not get to be initiated. These are things that every initiated member had to do, therefore they earned their place in initiation. They earned those letters. If you do not hold yourself to the standards of membership your organization has, or violate national policies, you lose the rights to wear those letters, have your membership terminated, and are forced to forfeit the paraphernalia sporting the letters and terminology. These are things each organization values and only those who are true to the organization should own. Each organization is alike in many ways, but each has their own traditions and rituals that make them unique. An experience in my sorority may be worlds different of another on campus. It is the people that make the experience different and the ritual and values that make it an incredible experience. But knowing how incredible your experience is, how beautiful and touching your ritual and how dear your values, would you have accepted hazing to get there?
I think about this a lot. Probably more then I should, probably a lot more then someone who wasn’t hazed. I’ve never met someone who was hazed (that I know of) but have heard the rumors and whispers, and seen a chapter disbanded because of it. I hear of the affects hazing has on individuals and organizations and know the laws that go along.
Ultimately, though I would do anything for my sisters and for the sorority I hold dear, the idea of being hazed to get to the point I am now as a member is completely dreadful. My sorority holds the values of faith, hope, love, power, and wisdom. Looking at these hazing can do nothing positive for any of these five values. Hazing does not show faith, in either a higher power or the sisters you hold dear, neither does it show hope, only except that you are hopeful it would end. Power I suppose hazing could show, but only in the negative sense of an older member who is doing the hazing has power over a younger member. Wisdom, a wise person wouldn’t stay in a sorority that hazes. That’s that. And ultimately love, which I hold dear to my heart, no part of hazing shows or can build love.
So to answer my own question, would I have accepted hazing to get to where I am now? No, because though my experience is wonderful, and the ritual is the most beautiful thing I’ve been a part of, hazing would overshadow this completely. I wouldn’t be able to look at my sisters the same way, respect them, or respect my national organization.

I want to be someone's first choice.

I would just like for once not to waste my time. Not to think that someone is going to stick around and then they leave just at the beginning. I would like to learn .. re-learn how to love, how to be dedicated, and how to have a relationship. is that so hard?