i want you, more than you could ever know

i've started falling for this amazing beyond words guy, noah. i've known him for a while, and liked him, but i never really saw him. he went to a different school, and we had the same friends. he graduated this year, and ive seen him a lot this summer, and tonight, we are hanging out, first time for just me and him. we're going to mckees, and im undeniably excited
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my best friend thinks that noah likes me, i can only hope, i want him more than ive ever wanted anyone before, and i really hope he wants me too
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I hope you know you've made a lasting impression.These thoughts of you tonight are well worth the mention.I'll stay up again i can leave the lights on for you.You'll find your way back home.

you were happy once, you were happy with me

we were both happy
and now, we're not together
and we're unhappy.
so, be happy
be with me
choose me, choose happiness
because, even if i swear i dont
i do
i still love you.

this isnt my confession but im coming clean

i knew it was just a matter of time before this all would catch up with me.


my heart is broken, just as always, its been nearly a year and it still hurts, i realized, most of my feelings are gone for him, but theres still this little spark when he's near.
anyways, i have gone back to bulimia, its the only thing i have ever had as truly mine, and i dont care. i cut, not much however, but just enough to be frowned upon.
it doesnt matter anymore
i need sleep.