but if i try to save him, my whole world would cave in.

i love this man. he is incredible and pretty much the best guy i've ever met. he is my miracle, he is who i've waited for my entire life. he changed me so much, but then it was like, he just .. didnt want to talk to me, didnt want to see me, didnt want to hold and kiss me. and i have never loved someone so much, and i have never hurt so much. and he wont even tell me about himself, he's got such a hard life that i want to know
but he wont tell me
not ever
he doesnt trust me
he doesnt love me


oh and i dont know, i dont know what he's after.
but he's so beautiful
he's such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
lord, would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster?