the weight of the weary is greater then proposed.

i'm not supposed to be feeling this way. and it tears me apart. we've been apart longer then we were together yet i've fallen even deeper in love with you. how can this be? how can a heart feel so much pain and let itself feel even more and more?
this makes no sense.
it goes against all logic.
but you haunt me in my dreams. your memories are all that i seek.
and i hate this so much.