To My Future Husband,
I’m sorry that I have been weak in my youth. I loved a man very much, though in a very different way then I will love you. This man knew me inside and out. I trusted him, for the first time in my life I trusted a man, that is until I meet you I’m sure. I slept with this man, I lost my strength and found it in him, holding my body, and it seemed like a good idea at the time. Now I’m lost and not sure if it was. He was my very first, you have to know that until I meet you, I wanted my life with him. So all I have to say at this point, is I hope and pray that when we meet, you will not think any less of me for not being the girl I’m supposed to be. For being weak. I don’t feel any different than I thought I would. And I vow not to do this again until I know that a man is committed to me, until I know you are committed to me for the rest of our lives, I just hope that no other man comes along and fools me into thinking that they are committed to me before you do. I think of you daily, I hope your having a good life and you think of me too. I hope that when we meet you will see beyond my past and see the woman I will be one day.
With Love,
Your Wife.