can't feel the sand between my toes.
i nearly killed myself the other day. i try to seem strong but that night i wasnt feeling strong, and i just wanted to. the thing about life is that i feel like i have no control over anything. thats why i had the e.d. thats why i self injured, and thats why i want to kill myself. because thats something i can control. dakota always told me i had so much more control then i thought, and then he ended our relationship, something he thought would be better for me.
i wish people would stop making decisions about whats good or bad in my life without consulting me first.
and thanks to last night i want to end it even more. i hate him so much right now.
this would be one of my whining posts that i'm trying to get away from. its just i feel a lot of emotions and i dont know what to do.
i'm afraid i'm bi polar, or something. dakota thinks i have general anxiety disorder.
and everyone wants me to talk to a counselor. but i refuse. i'm not weak.
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